August 17, 2017
Woke up this morning feeling better and more energetic than I have in a long time. I slept well and had good dreams that I remembered. Which could not be from one day without drinking, right? It’s not like I was swilling a six-pack every single night or bringing vodka in a water bottle to work. But maybe I was drinking more heavily than I realized.
It only took two cups of coffee to get out on the road for my morning run. Running felt so good at first I overdid it and the humidity (which I am not quite used to having just moved to DC from LA) made me feel nauseous. A few minutes in the air conditioning and I was ready to start charging through my day, clear-headed and with intention.
I had dinner plans with friends, but they had to cancel, so I have not had to make an excuse for not drinking yet, and maybe not until the weekend or even next week. I still am not quite sure how I will break the news to people. The good thing is, I don’t have many friends here yet, so maybe there won’t be so much pressure. It will be a sensitive situation at work too because there is a large pressure to socialize. It’s definitely cultural in my industry. I don’t want people to suddenly think I “have a problem” or anything because that could affect my standing. I acknowledge this is probably the wrong way to think about it but I want to get a little deeper into this before I start talking about it.
No grand temptation to drink yet but there is beer staring at me from the refrigerator and a bottle of wine on my counter. I have not gotten rid of it (I think) in case I have guests. It’s better than buying it again.